Continue reading »]]> Hi everyone,

This is probably the worst thing I’ve ever done, and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forgive myself. The thing is, after several months of ‘falling’, I had finally become mired in a depression of the worst kind (by my standards at least). I lost faith, took pleasure in nothing, not even my passions and friends. On the other hand, I grew hateful and bitter, full of envy and self-loathing. Finally, since I had lost all reason to live, I seriously considered suicide last week. It had never been more real.

And that’s where I did it: I told my younger brother. I revealed my black heart to him, and told him to to get ready for the moment when I would leave ‘to the other side’. My brother is very fragile, due to several traumatisms he faced when he was very young. What he needed was my encouragement, my help. And all I gave him was the crap inside me, while he was in a summer camp having fun. If I hadn’t talked to him a few days later to try to fix it, he probably would have tried something stupid as well, who knows? In all, as his elder brother, I had failed him. I don’t know what to do to repent. Any ideas?

Continue reading »]]> I live everyday ashamed of what I have done. I have had sex before marriage, I have stolen I have lied, I have cursed, I use God’s name in vain I have cheated,  I am an athiest BEGGING to be with God but I can’t and I dont know why. I want to know God but I am afraid to admit it out loud.(another sin) I have done more but will never admit it online. I am the biggest sinner and God knows how bad I want to change… I secretly love God and want to know him..

Continue reading »]]> We are both males and I just really have no interest but I slept over in his house. He told me to if I will give him a BJ. I screamed, I was extremely scared next day I told everybody even though technically he did not rape me and now his gone through extreme abuse currently going through help after a suicide attempt. Did I really go to far even though he was in the wrong at first.